Wholly Committed...

Is God calling me to be wholly committed to Him?  I do indeed think He is.  I've always been committed to Him, but I have felt that tug for quite sometime that He desires a deeper, more intimate relationship with me and I've wanted that;  I just wasn't quite sure how to achieve it.  Life was always so busy.  I'm not proud to admit that I allowed my busyness to be an excuse as to why I couldn't (or didn't) spend more time in the Word or praying, seeking that deeper commitment.  Life has certainly changed for me in the past couple of years, in the past couple of months.  He's been opening doors and closing some windows in weird sorts of ways.  I do so love to see how God works though.  It's usually in the ways I wouldn't have thought of it and I adore that about Him.

At this moment in my life, I'm a newlywed (for the second and better time).  I have a tween and a teen. I've worked at home in a profession I love and was successful at for almost two decades and that door is falling shut, slowly but surely.  But He has prepared me for this, for what I believe to be my second calling.  In the oddest of ways, He's preparing me.  The girl who was once terrified to speak in front of more than two people, now has spoken in front of a few groups of people (for a few different reasons) and liked it.  Say what??

I believe God is preparing me to share My Story.  We all have a story and should not be defined by it, but share it.  I have shared it along the way when I felt strongly prompted to do so.  My story, a very tragic and traumatic event in my life, has given comfort and inspiration to those I've carefully told it to. For that reason, I've kept my eyes and my heart open.  I see where He's leading me to tell my story to others in hopes of helping someone who is struggling.  He knows what I need, when I need it, and why I need it, and now that I've let go of my worries and fears, I can dive in becoming wholly committed.   I've carried a quote around with me lately.  It's meaningful to me and makes me, well, just happy.  "Jesus knows me, this I love."